rêves

J’ai révé qu’en réalité, vous êtes une fille qui veut juste gagner un peu d’argent pour pourvoir rester en france……et tout ce que vous m’avez dire n’était pas réel…..ce n’était pas un bon rêve……

never forget

I  have never forget the day we had meet in front of the ”caroussel de musique” in the commercial center..the most beautiful day in my life until now.

Never forget your smile and the moment we exchanged our phone number. You have given me a little bit kindness in my lonely lost life in France.  I have to thank you with my most sincere heart. Indeed, very often, I think about you and  feel really sorry for what I have done to you. The tears falling down.

What’s wrong with me…..I do realize….

Yes, Indeed…you was there near to me but you don’t understand me….. Yes, Indeed…you heard what I said but you did not want to understand the reason..

I felt lots of stress and mental decouragement when I was with you……… And right now I understand  what I was afraid was to be you…I am really sad to realize it ….Hard to accept it even me…..Yes…it was this reason who made me react like this. I have asked myself thousand of times ”am I right?” I don’t know…….

When I was with a person I  love,  we share lots of things together and then get many characters from each other. I feel that I am becoming you……and I realize that I can not accept it and also I know that I can not change you if you do not want it.

At the end….I feel that was me who don’t want to do efforts….I think I should stop thinking….even I am alone, it’s maybe better…….I still have a hope for what I am feeling alive.

You are so cute…hard to accept that my love is vanished…..

Do not forget the person who have helped you

伯父賣蔥油餅供念書 少年圖報恩
更新日期:2009/01/04 05:22

摸到油膩膩的鈔票，可能讓人嫌惡，但也能啟發一個男孩的感恩之心。國三學生劉德權由於單親，因此，念書的學費都靠伯父賣蔥油餅一片片賺，每學期繳學費時一張張油膩膩鈔票，總讓個性叛逆的他燃起感激，劉德權在校刊披露自己的故事，還打算寒假到台中幫伯父賣蔥油餅報恩。就讀雲林國中烹飪技藝班的劉德權，學科成績不算好，個性有點叛逆，他披露單親的生活與對賣蔥油餅阿伯的感恩，跌破老師眼鏡，也感動很多師生。 劉德權說，升上國中後肚子特別容易餓，有天終於忍不住，湊足銅板買了一片蔥油餅，咬下之際卻讓他眼眶溼潤，彷彿看到台中的伯父劉邦賢揉麵的雙手，推著小車一片一片煎、一元一元掙，養活了兩家人，包括他每學期的學費與開銷。 「每當要繳學費時，阿伯都會專程回老家（古坑）一趟，把註冊費交給祖母…」劉德權說，看到祖母接過的鈔票泛著油漬，他心中總激動著「阿伯不知道要賣多少片蔥油餅，才能賺足這一筆數千元的費用！」 劉德權表示，小六那年伯父還送他一個特別的「畢業禮物」，教他煮飯。也因為這個禮物，國中三年來，他煮全家人的晚餐，還選讀了烹飪技藝班，希望有一天當個台菜廚師。 劉德權指出，伯父曾告訴他，因為他單親，父親手頭不寬裕，沒能好好栽培他，此時若連自己人都不伸援手，日後更沒有出頭的機會。 受伯父的蔥油餅栽培多年，劉德權學會烹飪技術後，也曾偷偷學做蔥油餅，可惜不是太油就是太乾，只能揣擬伯父的手藝。劉德權說他從沒見過阿伯的蔥油餅攤（也可能是抓餅），讀到國三也該回報了，這個寒假打算到台中，陪阿伯一起賣蔥油餅，還要把校刊的文章送給阿伯。 本則新聞由中時電子報提供 2009/01/04

my love

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
‘Cause I saw the end before we’d begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what’s mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won’t stop there,
I am here for you if you’d only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I’ve kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I’ve been addicted to you.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can’t break my spirit – it’s my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I’ve seen you cry, I’ve seen you smile.
I’ve watched you sleeping for a while.
I’d be the father of your child.
I’d spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We’ve had our doubts but now we’re fine,
And I love you, I swear that’s true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I’m asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I’m kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I’m so hollow, baby, I’m so hollow.
I’m so, I’m so, I’m so hollow.

By James Blunt…thanks…I just want to find this….

It’s not funny

Crying is sometimes the best way to tell myself what was wrong.

But I can not cry anymore. ……

I hide naturally my feeling with my smiles

Yes today I feel that I loose both of you and myself

That was what I wanted, wasn’t it?

I know that I should tolerate this lonely life

If it is named ”Love”

It is then a pity

notre amour

Penser à des souvenirs flous de mon enfance,
Nuages flottant dans le ciel bleu
À l’époque, tu voulais prendre ma main dans la tienne

Pour se réunir jusqu’à la fin

 

Dès lors, je n’ose pas lever mes yeux pour regarder le haut
Comme si j’ai perdu la couleur du ciel
A partir de ce jour, j’ai oublié de respirer
Ah les larmes à jamais

 

Notre amour passé ne revient plus à jamais

Je l’attends encore en silence

 

Je comprends que notre amour passé est devenu un fardeau pour toi

 

Seulement, à jamais, 
La dernière chaleur que tu m’as donné présente dans mon cœur

 

 

Ne demande pas si je t’aime encore  
Maintenant, je veux le ciel libre
Partir de ce monde emprisonné

Partir de cette solitude

 

回憶裡想起模糊的小時候　
雲朵漂浮在藍藍的天空
那時的你說　要跟我手牽手　
一起走到世界的盡頭

從此以後我都不敢抬頭看　
彷彿我的天空失去了顏色
從那一天起　我忘記了呼吸　
眼淚啊永遠不再　不再哭泣

我們的愛　過了就不再回來
直到現在　我還默默的等待

 

我們的愛　我明白　
已變成你的負擔
只是永遠　我都放不開　
最後的溫暖　
Ah~~ 你給的溫暖

不要再問你是否愛我　
現在我想要自由天空
遠離開這被綑綁的世界　
不再寂寞

 

F.I.R

 

 

 

 

I want to say goodbye

Dear

maybe it’s the last time I call you like this in my heart

you will come back home next monday

but I think that I won’t see you as usual

I am sorry, I just want to be alone

how long I need for being alone

I have no idea

sorry

I know

Yes, my sky

I know, It’s all because of me

But please, give me your hand

will be better

Just want to keep it like this

Somethings that I can’t forgive yet still in my mind

Just want to be alone and to be myself

Maybe one day, everything will be clear

At least, I hope………

a new life

very day I have a wish

very hour I have a talk

very minute I have a  thought

very second I see you, both of you, in my heart

close my eyes, yes, I decided

Just keep both of you in my dream

no more than this